I feel so much more inspired and confident and eager to write than I did before. I think that the line of questioning that consumed me last year was debilitating and just created more obstacles. Now I feel like, it’s okay to take stock and reconsider motives and go through that process with one’s own work. But I was so obsessed with that existential conundrum of ‘What’s the point of the song?’ that it was just ridiculous. Now I feel like I’m embracing ignorance in a way. Like, who cares? I can’t explain what I’m doing; it doesn’t make any sense to me. The life of the mind can lead to this debilitating maze or mental labyrinth, in which one is left wandering and scaling endless walls of existential questioning. I can’t live my life like that. So I’m much more into just action now. That’s why we’re starting to incorporate dance into the shows because I just wanna move, I just wanna feel. I believe in sensation now more than I believe in thought.
I went through a period of questioning motive and function and now I no longer have the privilege of questioning. I just have the privilege of celebrating my music and sharing it. I don’t really want to get caught up in that self-doubt any more. I’ve always been really insecure about what I do, but those existential conundrums are really circuitous and – what’s the word? – unproductive. You know, I don’t think my music is important, I don’t think it’s changing the world, I don’t think it’s art. I just think it’s music. It is what it is.
Beautiful words of Sufjan.
Her Majesty The Queen
Here is one I love inspired by my friend Felix Howard.
Andrew Butler of Hercules and Love Affair. Being beautiful. (Taken with Instagram at Tower of London)
Today (Wed 1. August. 2012) we rehearsed for Antony Hegarty’s Meltdown Festival. We play on Monday 6th August. I’m so in love with Andy and the music they wrote together and can’t bloody wait for my friends and family to finally see it. I hope I do them proud.
Music Discovers HowAboutBeth
- Church Service. Keeping my very pregnant mother company. Altar call. Vicar-dude in M&S jumper approaches a 10 year old HowAboutBeth to pray and says:
- M&S-VICAR: You're going to sing for God.
- HowAboutBeth: What?
- M&S-VICAR: Sing for God.
- HowAboutBeth: Okay,cool. (Sings on-the-spot, returns)
- MUSIC: Never lets go.